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ORIGINALLY POSTED January 04, 2023

i'm really good at opening tight jars or untying tight knots. i once made good scrambled eggs before i had even tried scrambled eggs before. i like breakfast in bed and writing letters. when i was a kid my mom couldn't take me to petsmart because i would look at the cats and cry to myself. i have a good memory and could direct you from my ex boyfriend's house to his local post office even though i went there once. i used to read bedtime stories to my friend's little sister but i haven't seen her since i was in seventh grade. i got an a+ on an essay i wrote three hours before it was due. i can't tell if i like old people or babies more. i think i like everything. 

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